♥ La Foi

Great spree, great food.

2011-12-14T00:55:00.001+08:00

Went to look for SY's clothes and shopping was not so much of a tedious and tiring trip. I pretty much enjoyed being this boy's nanny and fashion advisor! As a reward, I had Marche Rostti and cakes as a treat for a day's work. YUMZ!

Strawberry Cheesetart

Marche @ Vivo

Marche has changed so much over the years. I dont know when was the last time I went but I remember they were using punch cards then! 7 more weeks left. :'(

All in all, I iz one happy girl today!

The end is near.

2011-11-24T16:48:00.001+08:00

Left with one more Chemistry MCQ and it is the end of A levels! But, I have given myself a really good break the past two days so I should get started with my preparation tomorrow before Fatboy returns (and that is when everything becomes unproductive again)!

I would like to share a quote with you guys. This is one really inspiring quote and I think it gives everyone the headstart to a ferocious will to achieve individual pursuits! Hope this quote effectively makes you all feel the same way it did for me.

"Look for ypur passion. What makes you excited? What turns you on?... Go towards companies that you really like, really admire. What do yoou admire about them? Spend if you can an internship there, or just knock on the door and say: "Hey, can I work here for cheap?"... Find organizations that move your spirit if you can. Worl along side them. And have fun. There's so much fun to be had. When you work 95% of your life in a work environment, it can't be dour."
Anita Roddick - The Body Shop

And I met up with my besties on Saturday for Mac breakfast! <3

Adores*

Can't wait for Fatboy's return! It is time to make a good, crazy quality time before he fliesssss off. And I can't wait to catch up with allllll my friends (as soon as their exams are over). This december calls for a wild time! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA :D

Too much coffee

2011-11-19T19:12:00.001+08:00

Coffee from Macs makes me a real cranky bitch cos it not only makes my stomach churn, it makes me nauseous and lousy. Never gonna drink coffee from there anymore.

Wasted three days and I can'tm imagine how lazy I have become. mIm enjoying myself as though As are over (but hell it isnt). It's the weekend and I havent gone to church for two weeks. Honestly, what has gotten into me? Feeling really lousy right now. Should have known better.

So much for doing essays for my tutor.
I have to do them now (coupled with my churning tummy, nauseous feeling and horrible handwriting (yes, pretty OCD)). 3 more days!

Overwriting with new memories.

2011-11-17T23:38:00.001+08:00

The whole exam period have been a real struggle. But Im trying to put in a little bit more faith into every aspects of my life. This whole A levels is mentally straining me. NUUGGGHHHH~~

It is amazing how words can be used to comfort people.
It is amazing how words can be used to embrace people.
It is amaing how words can be used to induce trust people.

Ironically, words can break people.
Ironically, words can hurt people.
Irony, irony, irony.

Well, words may vary and it vary with feelings.
It's amazing how your words always provide comfort.

Empowered

2011-11-15T01:39:00.001+08:00

Strength begets faith and trust - I might have said that exams were suicidal and mentally tormenting, I will just leave it to God and His plans for me.

I hope it will really be a rainbow of hope and new beginning after my A levels.

Day One - GP

2011-11-09T16:31:00.001+08:00

I pray for a miracle, cos only He can work the miracle and provide me with what is good.

One subject down.
Four more to go, exactly 20more days to the end.

"I love exams!"

Complete madness.

2011-11-07T23:19:00.001+08:00

The stakes are high and it's really too late for regrets.

One to ten to hundreds to thousands.

2011-11-01T15:56:00.000+08:00

My very first entry for the month of November! A levels coming in exactly 7 days!

One word - screwed. Im saying that everyday but no actions. It's as though th steam died after prelims or something. Meow.

Loh came to Church last saturday and it's amazing how everything is working out right now!

I wanna buy a polaroid cameraaaaa soon! <3

A Day of Promise.

2011-10-23T11:52:00.000+08:00

"Baby you light up my world like nobody else."
The weekend had been an awesome one!

Sorry Knights that I cant attend covenant today. Wish I could be there to witness the special moment of vows and promises. Life have taken its toll on me but not any more because God is my Salvation and He will see me through my hardships in any case.

Okay gonna get cracking! C:

Tonight, Im not afraid.

2011-10-17T13:15:00.002+08:00

Love this song.
For You I Will (Confidence) - Teddy Geiger

The fact that I dont have to wake up early for school (actually I still do cos being in school at 8am means I have to leave the house at 645), the fact that I dont have to follow many particular rule (makes me feel like a kiddo sometimes) is just GREAT! Okay but that means I need to cultivate a more disciplined attitude towards my work (and I just spent two hours doing useless things online like Facebook, twitter, tumblr, blogs). Meow. I should get going.

Meeting YT later for dinner! Woohoo it's been such a long time.

Hope you guys love the song!

Aint the end.

2011-10-16T02:26:00.001+08:00

Grad day marks the end of another school year. Here's a glimpse of that marvelous day - the new friendships fostered over a mere 6months that could possibly last a lifetime, and teachers who have impacted me through my journey.

Here it goes!

Be amazed.

2011-10-13T10:07:00.001+08:00

Pursue humility. Humility doesn't mean you think less of yourself but that you think of yourself less.

"Do not think of yourself more highly than you ought, but rather think of yourself with sober judgement, in accordance with the measure of faith God has given you." - Romans 12:3

No pretense.

2011-10-12T02:09:00.001+08:00

I was just wandering around daddy mummy's room and I spotted this orange envelope. Being an absolutely kaypo kid, I went to open that envelope and guess what I found - pictures of me when I was a toddler; pictures I have NEVER seen before. There was also a sample of my parents's wedding invitation card! Yupppadee. So I took a snapshot of them and here they are!

Poem - William Butler Yeats

2011-10-11T17:02:00.002+08:00

When you are old

When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;

How many loved your moments of glad grace.
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;

And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.

Cos faith can move mountains.

2011-10-09T20:47:00.002+08:00

Attending church yesterday was one of th most amazing events that had happened to me the entire week. I felt a reconnection with God. The entire week has made me even more sure of His presence as more and more people around me starts to talk to me about Him, answering my doubts in their own ways. It's amazing how I have drawn myself closer to Him. Like Rachel said, "This is an everyday struggle" - "This" refering to faith. I have reconciled with so many others that I havent been in contact with. Faith, Confidence. And, I wanna thank him for being in my life at the nick of time. There must be a reason why he's here for me. To me, it's His plans.

And a potential designer, my sister, with her artistic skills, attempted to make 'trash' to something pretty. Well, this is her first attempt and she insists I wear this to the beach someday. But I guess probably not. I look like a little red indian from some tribe. HAHAHA! Here's a glimpse of it!

Well that's about that. :D

Under His canopy of love, laws and will.

Angel

2011-10-06T22:17:00.001+08:00

Matt Nathanson's Angel is on my replay.

You sounded so good on the phone
All moved up and all moved on
Me and gravity we never could agree
I can almost see the sky
When I need to close my eyes
You're the only thing that's worth holding on to

Angel you sing about beautiful things
And all I want to do is believe
I traded my dreams for this mess of memories
And they just stopped working for me

I'm not a monster I believe
Like a liar would believe
Helps me navigate the wooden smiles, the raging sea
All my heroes pull their heads
Like a fighter would I guess
No one really ever likes getting older

Angel you sing about beautiful things
And all I want to do is believe
I traded my dreams for this mess of memories
And they just stopped working for me

Love the lyrics too. <3

I think Im a better friend than a lover could be or give.

Great teachers are hard to come by.

2011-10-05T08:22:00.001+08:00

Mr Foo gave our class students each an apple. The first thing that came to my mind was the 'I Not Stupid' movie where there are 'good apples' and 'bad apples' in th class. Well, he hopes we will stay healthy and prepared for the incoming A levels! Great teachers are hard to come by.

"Together, we are an ocean."

2011-10-02T20:21:00.002+08:00

Quote Ryunosuke Saroto: " Individually we are a drop. Together, we are an ocean".
I was doing my research for poverty for GP and I realised that it is apparent that many countries are spontaneous in eradicating poverty and this is done through providing humanity aid, educating people with skills etc to pull them out of the poverty cycle. But why do we not see an effectual end to poverty? I guess the motivations to find feasible solutions are not genuine enough. More can be done, that's for sure.

I guess Im posting this up because Im starting to feel the aggravation of poverty on these people. Im sure humanity can do more than this to effectively put an end to poverty.

Like a sunshine.

2011-09-27T17:53:00.001+08:00

Sunflowers make my day.

Final lap.

2011-09-24T23:00:00.001+08:00

Hope everything ain't too late.

I've decided to stick my polarids by my bedside, reminding me of the good times I once had and which will always be etched in my memories.

Polaroids

Friday night was a blast! I shall study hard for more of these every day after As!

Lies beneath the lie.

2011-09-23T12:35:00.001+08:00

Studying at Serangoon Starbucks reminds me of many things. Some memories just can't be overwritten, can they? Spent the morning working on two GP essays and it is pretty productive for me! ;) Please Lord, see me through the final lap and give me the strength to press on. <3

Today is gonna be a long and draining day.

Love (Corinthians)

2011-09-22T22:44:00.003+08:00

"Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins, but delights in the truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes."

Sweetness that lingers.

2011-09-20T15:50:00.004+08:00

After studying at Spinelli yesterday night. SY and I had dinner and cakes at Bukit Timah Plaza. The cakes at AllanBakes are one of a kind - The cakes are obviously meticulously decorated and they taste as sweet as they look. HAHAHA! :D Definitely bringing my sister there someday. It's inside NTUC Fairprice itself so do drop by and indulge yourself in these sweet treats! <3

Chocolate Fudge Dream

Strawberry Cheesecake

I should get cracking. The Thai video clip 'First Love' is really distracting. I have watched it three times and I ain't bored of it, AT ALL. Okay no more procrastination.

EYES ON THE PRIZE!

Nothing like this.

2011-09-18T22:29:00.001+08:00

Jayne's little birthday surprise on Friday was epic and successful! <3

Met up with Jas almost every day that week and it really feels nostalgic some times - miss those days back at CJ then with these girls! Look at Jayne babe's sleepy face! HOHOHO!

Jasmine's meditating position. (One and only)!

Collage we made for Jayne! Pwettty!

Moving on to Saturday - BBQ at my place. Look at Eunice (someone who barely steps into the kitchen is actually preparing something)!

Made by Eunice!

This week have been awesome. But Im coming back to reality tomorrow. 50 odd days to A levels! Nyuck nyuck nyuck!

Moments like this.

2011-09-16T00:57:00.001+08:00

So this was our little prezzie for our dear birthday girl Jayne. :D
It is perhaps one of th most epic and memorable gift I have ever done for a friend. One of a kind, cannot be copied (and it could only be released today cos it was her birthday)!
This is to you Jayne! Loveeee xxxx!

Yet again.

2011-09-14T22:47:00.001+08:00

Im so worried (yet in a way not) for tomorrow's math p2 and lit p5. I havent started on litp5 at all and now is already 1050pm?! GG.

So Jas came over to my place yesterday and we had a little crazy moment of our own. But, I guess Im simply really distracted by the movie 'A Walk to Remember'. Awesome show. Love it!

Rahhh it is like history repeating itself again. I told myself never to let the past mistakes repeat itself and it is apparent that it is. Pray for me guys. I think I will start doing some revision now. Cant believe prelims is coming to an end.

If Im not wrong, 6 more weeks to As. CRAP!

Leap of faith.

2011-09-12T23:35:00.001+08:00

Dare You To Move - Switchfoot
Love this song and it has been on my replay for th entire day.

Math paper today was rather disappointing. Thought I could do better but I guess what's done is done. Lately everything seems to be looking up: I have been catching with long-time-no-see friends be it via texts or meetups, studying more than I usually do (I think what I did for those three days is more than what I did for the entire year), taken a leap of faith and believing in the impossibles. I've also found my way back to Him and I feel liberated, less afraid. There are many people around me Im thankful for - my family, friends, crossroads. Speaking about crossroads, I was so excited and surprised to know that the emcee at my place's lantern festival event was one of the top 4 finalists for the DJ competition. This occurred yesterday and it seems to happen for a reason (and I actually plucked up th courage to talk to him and know more of his experience there). Wow. Im happy.

Sigh Chem and Econs paper tomorrow. My attempt to revise has failed, UTTERLY FAILED. I think I should get out of th house cos it is apparent that I've failed to study at home too many a time. Goodnight world! <3

Because You live.

2011-09-08T23:17:00.002+08:00

Crossroads. Life. Faith. Plans

Met up with HJ and WE today for dinner and Im happy that God has placed them back into my life. Indeed, I was blinded by the faults and flaws that seek to taunt my life and goals, leaving me stuck in a position of desperation that I can't seem fight out of. But, He is back to pull me up, at the very moment when I was about to lose faith completely, by bringing my friends back into my life, spreading His word to me.

I do have my doubts but, Im sure they will be expunged if I continue to find the answers through understanding and most importantly, believing - because He lives.

Through it all.

2011-09-06T21:54:00.001+08:00

Met Jas and Jayne for Prata at the shop next to Al-Ameen! I think that is nicer than Al-Ameen's cos Al-Ameen's prata are too dough-y for my liking. Honestly, Casuarina's the BEST. :D Then we went to Spinelli for coffee and work! I prefer the Choc Mint Spin to the Cookie Spin though.

I miss the good ol' days.

Okay my attempt to complete AJC or ACJC Math P1 failed. I only did RJC, HCI and YJC in these two days. I think Im going at a really slow rate. Home is just an unproductive place cos I spent the last few hours watching shows (which clearly distracted me away from my study mood). I should just get out of the house. Drats.

NYAN NYAN NYAN.
Mummy keeps putting me in an awkward spot for the past two nights. I dont know but I actually like the fact she is like that. Heeeee.

Hanging by a thread.

2011-09-05T11:32:00.001+08:00

Im still stuck with Tess text. Rahhh Im taking so darn long to finish the text! Tess O Tessy, why are you so silly, foolish and passive?

I think Im going insane cos I really wanna do well for prelims but I keep losing sight of my goals. This clearly shows how short my focus span is.

Head down to Holland V to meet Ting and YZ after my Granny's birthday celebration. Wala Pub is really one of the nicest place to chill. It is my first time there and I love the ambience, the band and the best is the KRONENBOURG BLANC BEER! I never really liked beer but this I swear is AWESOME! Of course needless to say, the company matters too.

Okay Im gonna finish RJ, AJ and ACJC Math Paper 1 papers today.

Gahhhh! My headache really needs to go away or else today will just be another unproductive day.

Love that is so hard to defy.

2011-09-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

Foolish acts. I need to achieve some sense of self-control.

Somehow listening to this reminds me of how we started right at the beginning. Crossroads, how it all begin...? I dont know. Or is it simply me relating every single thing to you?

Lady Antebellum - Just A Kiss

Wanna be by your side.

2011-09-01T15:59:00.003+08:00

Today's econs paper is screwed up. There goes my B. :(
Well I cant really mblame anyone but myself. Have to push up my LitP5 and Math Paper. Final chance to myself really.

This video is great. Love her, love her voice, love the lyrics.
The Band Perry - If I Die Young

In a complete whirlpool of emotions. Everything seems to happen too fast. Way too fast.

God, please watch over him, wherever he is.
And give him and his family the strength they need to pull through this hard time.

You're my new drug,

2011-08-31T12:52:00.004+08:00

It's amazing how people come in and leave our lives. This year, undeniably, life has taken a toll on me. Studies, family, friends, beach volleyball and boyfriend. I thought I have given my best to make every single thing work but I guess we cant always have life the way we want it to be. I've grown up and learned through all these experiences and there some people out there who have constantly showed they cared, that they love me.
Through everything, I have learnt tolerance. Though I've yet to convince myself of accepting someone new, but Im sure I will, eventually. I can tell he is trying.

Friends that last a lifetime.

2011-08-30T00:23:00.005+08:00

Im glad I have been catching up alot with my friends lately, especially my dear PROB (this name we gave ourselves on th 14/02/06). Friends that lasted for 7 years! Well, that is something that I can thank God for.

Completely wasted 4 days of holidays so I really have to buck up and get the engine going again. I know I shouldnt be over reliant on people but how I wish Val is here to study with me cos SHE SCARES THE POOP OUTTA ME WHEN SHE STARTS MUGGING! Okay talking about it is starting to make me nervous.

So, these pics are taken when we stayed over at Eunice's house over the weekend! It was a decision made at the eleventh hour but, I totally had fun chatting and catching up with these girls.

Okay I think I drank too much that night and took hellala loads of crazy photos.
HEEEEEE! Im a happy girl.

Had dinner at Mq's house just now and it was like the gathering of our clique along with their boyfriends. JJ came along too. Well, it really seems that we have all grown up now:
A montage of our polaroids!
Just look at the contrast!
Okay gonna whack my GP essay and compre before crashing. Goodnight fellas!

Save me, Im drowning (in my sea of books)!

2011-08-25T19:28:00.003+08:00

Can you see the mess? CAN YOU SEE THE MESS!?
Holy crap my room is all dusty and filthy and messy cos Im just taking out the files and stacking them up like any old how, on my tables, the supposedly lappie table, around my bed.. No wonder my mum screamed at me this morning. I can barely walk around in this condition.

Major mass cleaning this weekend!

Okay Im just ranting.

Lit Paper 1 down! Dang I want a B for lit so bad Im gonna be like hardcore for lit p5.
And I have my very first B for GP essay! B! B! I still cant believe it myself! Wooohoooo thank you Lord!
But I know I need to speed everything up. Im glad Im really working harder now. Hope this will go on till As are over! Gogogogogo!

Tomorrow.

2011-08-23T23:07:00.003+08:00

All of these, I brought upon myself.
Tomorrow supposedly marks a special day and somehow, somewhere in me, I wish I can get a phonecall or, Idk, a text. But from everything that has happened, it seems as though Im being a contradiction myself. It's clear that you've moved on (and I have no right to hold you back).

What if I can't let go?
What if. What if.

Okay gonna read Wuthering Heights and generate my three arguments.
Why life so tough?

Epheremal weekend.

2011-08-21T23:18:00.002+08:00

Math tuition today was demoralising.
The very fact that I did integration instead of differentiation is just SHTUPID (yes with the H).
But GP tuition at SG's was GREAT! First time I ever get complimented for anything regarding GP. He read out my introduction to the class and, it really sounds as though I went through a revelation or something. Like SG always says: "Getting ideas is like cosmic fishing". Im happy and I guess things are really looking up lately.

I PASSED MY DRIVING TEST!

Photos will be posted next time.
Dang! School starts tomorrow and Im rushing work again.
At least Im doing them now. GOGOGO T!

So tired but Im gonnna press on! (:

2011-08-15T21:59:00.004+08:00

School is driving me crazy.
I dont know how long I can handle th stress cos it is only day ONE of the weeek! Ennui!
Im gonna press on cos it is only 8 weekends left to As! #panicattack!

Dear Definite Integrals, I need you and me to integrate as one to rock the paper. Sincerely, math noob. #DPS
Me and Eunice's Polaroid! Like finallyyyy!!

I think my eyebags are so distinct as seen in th photos. I've been having less than 7 hours of sleep almost everyday since last week (and I blame it on the late hangouts, chitchats and yes, attempts to complete my work).

I know He will give me the strength I need for the upcoming exams.
I just dont wanna fall sickk now. Tyvm!

Dinner then I shall (MUST) complete my GP essay, Lit essay and Definite Integrals revision.
RAWRRR~

Born to love.

2011-08-14T18:23:00.002+08:00

I will learn to love again.
I remember it was you who made me love and trust.
It was never easy, but you did.

I believe there is someone out there who will make me believe in it again.

Enough.

2011-08-13T00:47:00.003+08:00

Hanged out with Eunice babe today and Im really happy!
We took polaroid, had our share of Barcardi Breezer and just chitchatting (and I love that she is always here for me, that we have lasted so long, through the years and she will never ditch me in any case). *hearts*

Then Mengheng came along and I had my laugh, forgetting all the troubles that tugged me since the breakup. Zhikai came after and Im just happy, really happy that they were around to make my night. (:

Truth is, Im still doubting my worth.
When I see guys waiting for their girlfriends, MH travelling all th way down to Jurong for E, birthday surprises, ... I realised I have planned so many things to do with him yet I never had th chance to. And I realised I was th one doing th planning. I guess Im only worth that much. To think I used to think I was th luckiest girl in th world. Now, I doubt that.

I have a dream, a song to sing.

2011-08-11T16:20:00.004+08:00

I think the photo is pretty much self explanatory (minus the words written by ZK and I only noticed it when I was packing my desk).

Yessss! I went for the NUS USP campus tour on Saturday and I think I have established a goal! :D I really want to be a part of this programme but it takes more than grades to get in there. You need the wit, critical thinking and personality they are looking for. So, as of today, Im gonna cut my emotional setbacks and get cracking with work! Shall start with Chem and Econs today. Wasted my past two days doing NONSENSE and yes, Im completely guilty for that now.

"You've gotta be stronger than this"
GOOOOOOO!

Truth is,

2011-08-07T21:36:00.005+08:00

Listening to: Snow Patrol - Run

Wow this weekend passed really fast and I realised math has effectually distracted me off my thoughts and put those time into at least some workings. Heeee! I had FOUR mad hours of math tuition & Im so proud of myself for pushing myself through these tormentous hours of struggle, recalling formulae and digging the answers out! Rawrrr!

I need to learn how to reconcile my heart and my mind.
My heart is too impulsive and my mind is, well, lazy.
This equates to DISASTER I swear!

Credits to Google.

Okay Im gonna get my GP work going.
Topic,
"Uncertainty is the only Certainty". GO!

Wish

2011-08-01T22:42:00.000+08:00

Wish all of these pain will go away.
Wish I will no longer be distracted.
Wish I had a heart of steel.
Wish I knew the consequences.

Wish. Wish. Wish.

Short & Sweet

2011-07-25T20:52:00.001+08:00

Cant wait for As to be over!
Wooohooo!

4 more weeks to prelims.
14 more weeks to As.
18 more weeks to freedom.

Cant wait cant wait!

First thing Im gonna do - A getaway!

A Standstill

2011-07-24T13:08:00.007+08:00

Yesterday was PTM and Im glad I received my wake up call. Though I wish I could avoid the impending scoldings after PTM, Im sure these scoldings have effectually been retained in my head. Clearly I have missed the whole point of why I wanna return to school, why I wanted to do it all over again. The lack of urgency (quote) will not bring me the grades I desire.
Indeed, now or never. I really dont wanna regret.
Met up with Weiyan for a really short while to pass her Mich's gift then met Chleo at Vivo & manage to have some catching up of what's happening at beach trainings.

& Baby got me this pencilcase I wanted soooo damn much and I swear it cheered me up a million!

My little labrador shall be named PEANUT! Love it so darn much. Wish I have my very own little puppy!

Goodbye now! xxxx

Retrospect

2011-07-19T17:30:00.002+08:00

Wish I was a kid again.

This is Auntie Anna's 1.5 year old boy.
His name is Rio!

My son's name shall be Javier ___ Kai Zhe.

Sweet Temptations.

2011-07-18T21:34:00.002+08:00

I wanna live in a world of icecream; a wide array of them.

Baskin Robbins icecream is simply sinful yet liberating.
I recommend the Cotton Candy (it's better than those fluffy cotton candy) flavour, World Class chocolate, Gold Medal Ribbon etc.

Love it.

Kc's 23rd Birthday Surprise!

2011-07-07T21:50:00.002+08:00

Sunday was a blast and Kc's friends planned a mega-successful surprise for him!

Great friends and the best thing is that HE WAS REALLY SURPRISED!

Weekend was a blast.

2011-07-04T10:27:00.004+08:00

I know I know I declared war with myself to study today. But Im soo exciteed to blog about my weekend! It was supposed to be more packed but I guess it toned down a little with sudden cancellations here and there.

Saturday I had training in the afternoon and then I met up with Weiyan and Michelle baby after such a longgg time! I is happy girl. It was a crazy and wild night that shall not be repeated again until As are over (or maybe never again).

One night of wildness.

Shall blog baby's birthday surprise organised by his friends the next post.
Gonna watch 'Get Smart' and then get smart with my work.
Wish the weekend never ends.
xxxx

Welcoming my weekend (with an open HEART)!

2011-07-01T23:37:00.004+08:00

Rawrr Midyears are over!
O-V-E-R!

But that doesn't mean Prelims are over.
I've been feeling worried about my future and university intake, all the courses I could possibly take or the feeling of being rejected again.. Nuuuuu~ I guess it is a good sign that Im starting to be worried now (since I dont want history to repeat itself again). Im glad that my optimism have opened up my heart and incumbent to bringing joy to the people around me!

So I watched Norwegian Wood and I didnt finish it cos it was too painful to watch till the end. Not my type of show. Met up with Clara and Eunice (and Clara you seriously need to give yourself a goood break and spend time with ME)! Love my never-failing-to-make-me-feel-'better' friend Eunice. Just talk and talk non-stop. My ranting bin (in other words).

And, we spammed a few photos.

Yeaaa and I love wasting time and my life away BUT IT HAS GOT TO STOP!
Training tomorrow and then meeting Michelle and Weiyan after that for dinner! Finally (and I can't wait)!

xxxxxx

So I prayed and a miracle happened.

2011-06-29T14:09:00.002+08:00

Economics paper and I wished I have studied more for that paper. But, Im grateful. I studied ONLY externalities and it came out as one of the exam questions. Oh God, THANK YOU! Yes I prayed before the paper cos anxiety was getting the better of me and I was just having this Economics paper phobia AGAIN.

I just hope I can get my first pass EVER in JC (not including As).

Xuan and Jas helped alot in pep-talking me yesterday night. Great friends like them are really hard to come by and Im just glad they never left and I always know they will be there when I need them.

Indeed, optimisim brings me a better and more cheerful life. Since a miracle happened, I 'celebrated' by treating myself to KFC with Kc. (Eye rhyme like whutt?)

This friday Im gonna meet my bestiee and I can't wait!

Adieu everyone and study hard (that's if you are)!
xxxx

Optimism

2011-06-27T13:05:00.003+08:00

You are my loving pillar of support. No one can ever, ever replace you in my heart. You are more than just a nurturing figure but also, my bestfriend and confidante. You taught me ways to manage life and will never leave me in a lurch. I really can't ever live without you cos you are the only one who will always put me first above all else, first to be there when I need someone, first to notice when something is going wrong with me.

I love you so damn much, mummy!

Neither forget nor forgotten.

2011-06-26T11:33:00.003+08:00

Im supposed to be at JE mugging right now but I can't concentrate there so Im back home (attempting to get some work done after I post this).

These are the girls who have played a big part in my life and they are the ones who stick through almost everything, thick and thin with me. *reminiscing*

MYE starts tomorrow and I have not completed revising anything.
I keep telling myself to persevere but sometimes, I choose to procrastinate.
Chemistry paper tomorrow and I know no shit about it.

Gonna start work now! (:

Beyond trust.

2011-06-25T22:07:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was hardcore mugging session with Xavier at SMU. It wasn't as productive as I wanted it to be but at least some work was done (and Im happy about it).

Movie and dinner with Kc after a long day's work is really rewarding. (:

Today was volleyfest and I was so disappointed in my performance. My performance is really inconsistent and I felt that I could have done better. I expected better from myself. Gonna take a break off volleyball for myself. Yes, again.

"Everyday, do something that will inch you closer to a better tomorrow."
- Doug

Gonna hit my books now. I CAN wait for school to reopen. Doomsday.

Learning how to 'give and take'.

2011-06-23T12:50:00.002+08:00

Im happy that we had that talk last night. Im proud of myself for not saying 'letting you go' so easily anymore. Now that we are willing to work our way out together, I believe that it will work. I believe that we will make it all happen (cos I believe in you).

Yesterday I finally found the Maybelline Baby Lips that I wanted to get. Eunice found it a waste of money and, hahaha, I felt scammed too cos I thought it was a coloured lip balm like the Nivea one but NOOOOO, it's NOT!
But it's somewhat tasty though!
My corkboard (gonna pin up my secondary 2 and 4 class when I dig them out).

There is so much work to do yet so little time.
3 more days to MYE (and I have volleyball game this saturday and sunday).
Im so screwed or what!?

Gonna hit the books now before I head off for training later.
Im so happy to know that he is on the other side working hard too.
Xoxoxoxo!

Different worlds.

2011-06-22T23:23:00.003+08:00

There was three hours of lessons in school, volleyball at NTU in the afternoon then dinner and met up with Eunice for a chat. I must say, my life is so busy I dont know how Im gonna squeeze in th time to study. Brit says she might enrol at a poly and finish her education. Somehow I was thinking of the same alternative too. I dont know how much longer I can 'tank' these differences in age and academic levels that Im facing in school.

Talking about differences, I wish I could make you understand that we are two completely different individuals that does not seem to emerge as coherent or compromising. I dont know if there could possibly be anyone out there that can satisfy my expectations but for now, I know that you are barely there. I dont know how to be frank about this - the insecurity that Im feeling, the differences that I have to accomodate, the hectic schedule I have to keep up with - then I asked myself: What are my priorities?

This sunflower is a piece that I drew for NTU ADM application. I forced myself into doing something that is not me so that I could receive acceptance and pursue something that is out of the norm. I did not get accepted for two reasons: Im not good enough and Im not talented for this.
Im conforming to expectations and, honestly, I don't feel happy doing it. But, you don't seem to see it or understand, empathise with me, do you?

Have so much work to catch up with. Adieu~

Painted Nails, Shiny Cars.

2011-06-21T20:45:00.003+08:00

So last Friday I went out with Eunice and Huiting to Rebel and nothing beats that night. Not saying that clubbing is fun but I had a great time spent with these girls and just forgetting everything else that bothers the heart. In fact after that night, I was all set to study and work hard for As. I dont know how long will this motivation last (cos I only mugged real hard for one day and went out with Kc today) but I hope it will keep me going for now.

Okay gonna watch th Ch8 police show.
Adieu~

What matters is now.

2011-06-19T00:22:00.002+08:00

So many things have happened this week and what is mainly running through my head lately (besides A levels and waiting for miracles to happen) is about friendship. As years pass, we make friends from all walks of life, learning from one another and sharing moments together. But, question is how much are you willing to bring yourself to forgive someone when they betrayed the trust you had in them? Will it ever be healed?

I read from Cleo Magazine and it says this: "we[girls] tend to see friendships as a measure of our self worth and when things go wrong, we dont just feel rejected, we also feel like afailure cos we were unable to maintain that relationship"
Well, that kind of explained things.

So I shall leave that hanging for today.
Some things may come a little too late.
Goodnightios!

Miracles dont always happen.

2011-06-16T16:00:00.002+08:00

I chanced upon my friend's blog and it struck me: Why can't some people just understand? I wish I had a chance to go overseas and study, to explore beyond my boundaries, an avenue to go beyond my comfort zone and doing what I wanna do with nothing coming in my way. There are people who have done as badly as I did in As but they are given th opportunity to go overseas and further pursue their studies. There are people who have done as badly as I did in As but are able to find alternatives to their situations. I wish I had those options too. Sometimes life is just unfair, isn't it? Some are born with a silver spoon while others go through th pain to gain what they want. I know the way that I am thinking right now is really selfish on my part. I deserve it I guess. Just wish I had a choice.

Pray for the perfect life.

2011-06-16T15:09:00.007+08:00

Uggghh so sick now I can barely think properly or operate properly. Still contemplating whether I should go for training in my condition cos in this state, I could barely study!! And MYE is like 1 and a half weeks away and I can't afford to screw things up again. But, .. Im feeling FAT too! Ate so much roti prata this week that I should be titled 'Roti Prata Queen'. #justsaying.

There are so many things I wanna try out in life and I think Im gonna fight hard for them after As. Wish I was lucky sometimes. But, no pain no gain.

Watched super 8 & had Fish & Co. after 6 hours long of GP tuition. Need more time I NEED MORE TIME!

And I had roti prata breakfast with BigD today like finally!
Look at th retards at the Polyclinic.

Sent these photos to Px to wish her luck for tomorrow's op! Rofl.

Gonna rest and decide whether to go training later.
Adieu!

That's the way we roll.

2011-06-13T22:05:00.003+08:00

So Jas returned from Malaysia to go for SIM Orientation. Today we had a food marathon - Macs Breakfast, Roti Prata (with Teh Tarik and Teh-O Ice Limau) and Udders waffles!)! Every sad girl needs her sweet treats and lovely indulgence every once in awhile. Although this girl was spending almost 60% of her time texting and whatsapping (and tweeting etc), Im just glad she's around for some HTHT. Lovee!

Finally xuan, her and I can group whatsapp! Love it, love them! ♥

And, I saw these really pretty cakes at Baskin Robbins!
They are so pretty that you just cant bear to eat them.
Wow.

Tomorrow is another day for me to get cracking with work.
Hope it wont fail again. Wish me luck. (:

19 & Nothing will change! ♥

2011-06-12T15:58:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday Eunice darling!

Yesterday (with the help of her sister), we managed to give Eunice a little birthday surprise at her house with cakes and present! :D Sat in Clara's car and made our way to Eunice's house. Ohmy she drives like a G6 (and I feel like a Merlion in th car). Beh.

Photos -

Distorted birthday cake (cos I fell on the escalator when I was on my way)

Clara and Meiqi getting th cake ready in th lift!

Love you guyss! ♥♥
Eunice's candid shot of me putting make-up (with Meiqi and Clara as my 'tutors') Epic fail -

There are like a hundred over pictures but here are just a few.
Wild night for th birthday girl. Loveeeee ya! ♥

So not motivated

2011-06-07T15:11:00.002+08:00

Watching Gossip Girl Season 4 right now.
Soo not the right thing to do at this point of time.
Gonna finish it off and start doing work.
Teeeheee.

Life in a total jeopardy.

More than a remedy.

2011-06-05T23:26:00.005+08:00

I finally watched HangoverII! One word - EXHILERATING

After math tuition I met WL to pass him these two HUGE STACKS of prelim papers. Ohgawd I carried it all th way to Cityhall in th morning that I could feel my arms aching as I walked my way to tuition. Had Macs (usual fish-o-filet without tartar, fries without salt and milo without ice 0.0) & talking about life till it was time. Had complimentary coke that were offered at Citylink and it's just a 'typical kiasu kiasi act' to grab a free item.

Then had movie and dinner with KC. International Buffet was overstated but, I kinda do love th food there. Also, went into Muji for the first time. I know Im kind of a noob.

International Buffet!

More than just a remedy.
I always thought I was strong enough to handle every thing on my own without depending on anyone. But this time, I could have never been better without him - giving me all th support and the strength to pick myself up and believe that Im worth more than this. (: Meeting Eunice yesterday was th best way to fill up those gaps that are still vulnerable of breaking everything apart.

Indeed, it is better that I know now than later.
All in all, Im a happy girl today. Gloomy days are over!
Tomorrow, Im working my way towards my goal.
Time to soar and fly. (: (But for now, goodnight!)

Never too old to play.

2011-06-05T00:25:00.006+08:00

These pictures are pretty long time ago but I guess it is never too late to share the perfect moments where we celebrate our friends, Wy and Mx, birthdays with such spontaneity.

Meixuan taking a 'chill pill'.

Bunny girls! ♥A friend there when in need is a friend indeed.

A moment that is etched and will never be forgotten. (:
Memories that last a lifetime.

Your name, forever the words on my lips.

2011-05-24T21:07:00.002+08:00

Gonna take one step at a time.
Tomorrow is a brand new day, another day to convince myself that Im worth more than this.

This emotional turmoil has got to end T. It has to.

I could see it in your eyes.

2011-05-17T12:00:00.001+08:00

Impossible to feel nothing after being so close to you.

Picture Mess

2011-05-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

I think someone should come up with a song 'Sunday'. There's three CAs to be submitted tomorrow (one way overdued) and no submission = 0 marks. I dont remember myself being so worried about CAs and assignments in th past but now, completely different story. I suspect myself having a little ADHD (not becos of th way my family brought me up but because of the trainings I have been undergoing that makes it soooo hard for me to just SIT DOWN and DO WORK) and that explains why Im here rather than on my books (and tests).

(My photos are taking sooo long to upload today)

Somehow I have finally figured out what I really want in life and pursue after my As. Im just praying hard for opportunities to knock at my door and I promise I will give a 101% to it! :D

Th prezzie that Jas and Jayne gave to me have become the food of my soul.
Love it. I guess I will upload my pics some other time.

Goodnight! <3

Count your blessings.

2011-05-09T18:09:00.003+08:00

Before I begin,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLARA DARLING! <3
Thank you for always being there for me emotionally and morally though you have been extremely busy with I dont know what! No matter what, Im just happy to know that I will and always have you. :D

Soooo, I spent today giving a lot of thought to my life.
I have been reflecting on th mistakes I have made in the past, the things I have sacrificed to gain another, the friends I have gained, the friends I have lost.. And then, I start to wonder - words seem to hold lesser significance than it was supposed to be. Ohgawd. I wished I hadnt given up so much, I wish I could turn time back, I wish, I wish.. It's all too late.

I just copied down th MYE timetable and started feeling motivated to make things right again. Yet, I simply can't forget what mum told me last night. She was asking me about one of my extremely close friends in JC, A*******, and I was like 'I really havent been keeping in contact with her mum why do you keep asking? The last time I saw her was on th day I collected my A levels results!' and she went 'You see, you failed and you lose your friends. You spend so much time with her last time, go church and everything and now she has forgotten all about you. Your birthday?....' Ohgawd and I just went to reflect, ponder in solitude in my room blanket with darkness. All of these things my mum mentioned did come across my mind, but the moment she said it out loud, it was like ice splashed upon my skin, the prickly sensation and coldness that seems to numb your senses. 'What can I do?' - There was nothing I can do.

Instead of being agnonised by th thought of these sorta people, I do count my blessings.
Thank you to those who have been walking through this phase with me. Some of whom may not always be physically here to be with me but a simple email or message or sms that check in on how I am totally means the world to me. Now, these are words that hold significance.

No one ever said life is easy.
You are the actor of your own life and whoever comes along are part of your show. This is the same as when you enter someone's life, you are part of their show. But whether you are playing the good or the bad role, it is up to yourself to decide.

As for now,
Ciaosss~

Living in faith.

2011-04-08T23:51:00.002+08:00

It has been a really long time since I met up with her too since I got too caught up with life. Happy belated birthday Yanting! Im sure you LOVED the G-string and Wallet! :D

Im really happy and thankful for everything that have been bestowed upon me the past few days. Someone in class told me this: 'Be optimistic and everything will come your way. You will be blessed cos God has abundant blessings and even if you dont believe in Him, He will still bless you.'. Hahaha. Something along that line. Then, it struck me. Th moment I lost my faith in him, everything seemed to be crumbling down. I know I have not been doing certain things right and I have been losing my track. I cant possibly expect th entire world to understand what Im going through becos this is th lot given to me. Im supposed to go through it, face it and learn something out of it.

Thank you to all those who never fail to be by my side. <3

xoxo, T.

Looking forward.

2011-04-05T20:50:00.002+08:00

The past few days have been pretty awful. My stomach is working really cos the acid in my stomach is definitely breaking down th food fast. I cant sit still, I keep wanna crap. Gawd.

Okay so I've decided to start mugging really hard cos there are people giving me those stares of doubt and 'what th heck are you doing back at school' kinda face. I just really hope to make it up for myself this time so please, have faith in me cos I wouldnt have made this move if I knew I had tried my best. I know I can do better. So, here I am, back again to try th second time.

Thank you to all those who continues to believe in me. It definitely means alot to me. <3

Okay I know these pictures are like ancient but Im really soo happy to be mixing more with these girls after so long! :D
It just feels that we are close again and, thank you God for a better year.
I know you have plans laid out for me, and I shall receive whatever it may be.

Okay fingers crossed*
I wanna do things right and make it worthwhile this time. (:

Reminiscing.

2011-04-03T15:44:00.002+08:00

Hey darling, will you take my hand and promise never to let me go?

I've been missing you lately.
I finally started by opening up my books and attempted to read 'Taming of the Shrew'. But, what can I say, my mind is completely wandering elsewhere, not absorbing any contents.. This is bad.

So, I was wondering..
Have I become stronger after every thing that happened to me. Have I become a better person after going through the consequences that happened due to actions I choose to take last year? Walking down th hallway, flashbacks of things that we used to do, things we used to share, thoughts that I used to have.. They dont exist anymore. This is definitely a whole new beginning.

Love is a bitch.
You get all crazy and obsessed for a period and th next, everything seems to be back at square one. Great, now my mind seems to be completely manipulated. I used to believe that I was the one and only one that mattered. I thought I had everything under my control. No, I was wrong.

You've convinced me to give myself another chance to believe.
And, I did.
Well, the next round will definitely not be the same.
I'll not trust those words again, ever.

See through my heart.

2011-03-14T17:59:00.002+08:00

Gonna find th girl I used to be.

Feeling lost and out of place. The stakes are high, the competition simply increases every year.
Oh God, please guide me through this phase.

Miaow. Im sick and I just wanna laze at home for th week. Went to Forbidden City with Ting yesterday and th ambience was good, the music was right.. Totally loved it there.

I hope I will receive some form of affirmations soon. :)

If there's a will, there's a way.

2011-03-09T18:48:00.002+08:00

It's been a really long time since I droppped a post here.

Life seems to be at th lowest point right now. Everything that appears to be smooth and good just came crashing down, all in one day. Indeed, initially I couldnt believe what was happening to me. I thought if I prayed hard, continue to hold the faith and believe in myself, everything will work out just fine. However, things dont always go th way you want it to be. All good things do come to an end.

But, thank God, I continue to believe that he has plans for me. I believe that every life has its lowest point. I took alot of time to convince myself th possible outcomes that I may face should I take certain paths. And, now that Im given a second chance to make everything right again, I will seixe it and never let it go.

Stay by me.
I know everything will be alright.

Flawed.

2011-01-23T21:50:00.002+08:00

I was late for Church this morning. Giving six hours of tuition yesterday was no joke at all. I was utterly drained right after the 6 hours long of tuition but, I enjoy teaching. Ever since I started teaching, I have enjoyed company of these kids and the sense of fulfilment when I see that 'enlightened' in a way. HAHAHAA! I remember how impatient I used to be last time teaching my sisters and all, but now, it is a total different story.

I hoep to get my driving license soon.
I,ve been going for lessons almost everyday et I feel like Im still so far behind. I shall put in some effort to read th practical handbook before lessons in order to get myself familiar with the techniques first. I CAN'T WAIT!

Feeling rather worthless and insignificant.
I guess Im not perfect and sophisticated enough for you, am I?

Surprise kaboom!

2011-01-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

This is dedicated to Jasmine Chua!
Happy birthday babe! This post is a day late and Tv is sorry about it!
I thank your Mummy and Daddy giving birth to you this very day, God's plans for allowing me to have you as my goodfriend, my companion and nutcase partner in school for two years! Though it was only two years in Jc, it has been a rollercoaster ride of almost everything! Hope you had an awesome 19th birthday babeee!

Pictures from the little Malaysia trip to her place for a surprisee! (*YAY FIRECRACKERS*)
Many many credits to her sister Jessie and her mum for helping us make this a successful one! <3

Jasmine with her Hello Kitty!

Love ya babe!
xoxoxo stamped with loveee!

Airplanes, shooting stars.

2011-01-15T14:41:00.005+08:00

Kc is ooutta town and gonna be in hongkong for a week. It just seems kinda odd when this boy doesnt give me a call in th morning and talk me to sleep every night. Missing him alrdy.

Late nights and early mornings have resulted inm some form of a massive outbreak. Gonna stay at home today to chill and not spend money. No work = No income! My mummy has been asking me to get work. But, it seems that I havent gotten enough of th hollidays yet. Today Im gonna watch finish Glee Season 2 and the movie 'Hello Stranger' before I do some self-enriching task like reading a book and go for a swim. :D I just read th papers this morning and there was this article on a girl who depended on reading tonnes of books to clinch an A for her English, which also helped her to clinch distinctions for other subjects as well.

Hopefully I wont procrastinate yet again.

Taking a step back.

2011-01-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

Remember how our minds are filled with mischievous ways to get candies from our daddy mummy?
Remember how we used to work really hard, top in class and do our homeworks, just to get those gold star stickers?
Remember how we used to roll in th sand and jump into th pool the moment we're near?
Remember how we used to be so easily contented?

Life is super hectic now. Totally need a break and reflect.
HAPPY and sad moments. That's how life is. Face it.

Thy love.

2010-12-17T02:29:00.003+08:00

Shopping with sissy Ivana was fun and awesome. Have never done it for such a long time and Tivee ended her day happy. :D Thanks to Uni qlo, Zara, Forever 21, Taka, Commade, we managed to find th perfect clothes for the coming trip. Just hope Daddy will be sooo much better for th trip! :D YAY!

After today, I realised how foolish I have been. Mr J and sissy Ivana totally knocked some juice into my brains. More trust, less doubt. A leap of faith.

Im in lovee with you and only you.

Voices in my head.

2010-12-16T04:37:00.002+08:00

Yess, I think girls are pretty weird creatures. We want our minds read without saying them; We want our inner struggle felt without expressing them; We want many things and we hope that they just happen without mentioning them.
I wish I can have things my way.
Love can be felt in 4 ways: Physical, Affirmation, Time and Concern.

I waited up all night, worried through th night, yet I dont get want. I should stop demanding too much and just make my wants simple and sweet. Come to think about it, Im being rather ridiculous. Just 3 more days till Im gone. I wish I can go and never come back.

So it's goodnight.
I can concentrate no more.

Hold on.

2010-12-16T03:28:00.002+08:00

Im supposed to be dilligently doing some math for my sister's work (which is due tomorrow) but obviously, Im soooo distracted. Not distracted by facebook or twitter, but th little images that keep flashing in my brains. Gawd. Im being a little too paranoid here.
It's been a really long time since Im feeling this way. Th old me seems to be back (but not completely).
Alright Imma bounce before I leak out way too much.

All the single ladies put your hands up*

Happiness measured with a barometer, too little.

2010-12-15T23:23:00.006+08:00

Im back!
4 more days to my official departure to the prettty world of Japan. A getaway with my family does not sound like a bad idea at all. In fact, it is a chance for us to grow tighter now that everyone is involved. no disruptions like work and phonecalls, or even appointments. 5 days in Japan then 9days at HongKong. Happiness for me.
Speaking about happiness, Sister's Keeper is a great movie. It is a movie that makes you reflect, cherish and aware of everything that you own, your family, your lover.. Thumbs up* It's a movie that made me cry relentlessly.

Well, it is a wednesday and Im gonna be a good girl today, keeping my ass on th bed and no funny acts or intentions of escaping tonight. I do VERY MUCH wanna join th party but, after talking to Mr Good Man S today, I think I should cut down on those party actions. Not a place for people who are attached (unless you wanna get your baby jealous or worried) maties out there (I personally find).
I feel lazy.
I wanna laze.

Oh. Driving lessons were great. The instructor said I learn fast. Im already driving on th circuit th very first lesson! Yipeee! Hope I can get my license sooonesst! My daddy is pretty much as excited as I am! By that time, it'll be me on the roads!

Wanna hitch a ride, anyone? <3
Goodnighttt!

Wish we never have to grow up.

2010-12-12T19:40:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, my Auntie Khajiah called to probe why I ain't at France yet and I gave th phone over to my mummy. This whole thing has been so tentative since I cancelled it due to prom and Im starting to have my ass out of this country.

Since yesterday, Im starting to freak out upon th thought of receiving my A levels results. It is true and Im starting to believe that retaking wont really help much in getting better results.

Okay Im being quite depressed here.

Bleak future much?

I should start enriching myself.

Final Goodbye?

2010-12-05T13:22:00.003+08:00

Hello earthlinggs.
It's been a long time since I drop a post here cos since the end of A levels, everything have been happening in a speed of light (and I like it this way). Heee! Finally took a day break to spend time with my family and just chill at home.

Here are a few pictures from prom. Gonna keep this post short and sweet. (:

xoxo, T.

Fearless.

2010-11-30T00:16:00.000+08:00

It's a great feeling, this feeling of liberation and happiness that entails the end of A levels is sweet and tingly. Im doing everything at my own pace now (and I love it). Just going out and having fun is all that I can ever ask for. YAY!

Today was swimming at Mich's place with Weiyan and I simply had a great time. Last minute plan to go to town (when me and weiyan was simply wearing fbt and shirt) was insanee - we spent hours shopping for clothes that we could wear to town and that was, I must say, FUN and CRAZY. Never had such an experience before and I admit I will definitely wanna do it again. Spent loadsa money for a day but I guess it's worth it. :D:D

Last day of A levels.

Today at th moviee!

Mummy seems to be accepting kc already. I like it this way. Seems like we're halfway through this hurdle and it makes me relieve.
Loveeee, xoxo, everybodyyy!

Can't come to a compromise.

2010-11-27T19:20:00.003+08:00

Dont know what my heart is yearning for. Seems like though th holidays are here, my heart just can't seem to settle down. Everything ain't going th way I want it to be. So much for th excitement. So much so I do wish t understand, understand that whatever Im doing id too demanding and too much to be done in a short time.
Suffocated in everything that is happening right now. Too much drama for my comfort.

I miss my clique.
Goodluckk guysss for examss! <3
xoxo, T.

Just th way you are.

2010-11-25T11:44:00.004+08:00

Hello my pretty world of sunshine. :D:D
Im a happy girl today. I cleaned th house, went for a swim and had only bananas for lunch! :D Yay! :D Im gonna just eat bananas whenever I am hungry till dinner comes! Pretty despo to lose some weight (and th fact that KC also wants me to lose some). As Lizzie said, 24 more hours to freedom! Im so bored AND I just dont wanna do lit. I just wanna read books or simply surf th webbie th whole day. *RESIST*
Im gonna do some productive work today! Last day of official mugging!

As promised, my classs! :D
Yeaaa many says that our class is like a girls class but y'know, it makes all of us tighter and closer in a way that we dont really have to be too conscious of th way we behave since it is all girls (I think it is for me at least) around you.

IM HAPPY TODAY!

Nothing like you.

2010-11-24T22:11:00.003+08:00

In all honesty, I keep digressing and getting quite distracted by th other sitesss. And, Im here again to drop a postt. Hello Earthlings, it is 10:15 pm and Im bored. Im actually missing th days I camwhore with my friendss at lectures and canteen and almost anywhere as long as there is a CAMERA and PEOPLE to take with.

CHEESE-O~!

These are the awesome people I hang out ALOT with in school. Though th four of us only got closer only towards th end of th year, school just felt much better with you guys around! Not forgetting th otherss tooo which I'll post th next time when I grab it from my hard disk. :D School has really come to an end and, friday is th last day we'll see each other in school till we get our results in march next yearrrr!

RETARD.

Im feeling happier lately. I think th fact that As are going to come to an end is resulting more estrogens produced in my body that makes me a happier girl. Alright goodnight world.

Take me away.

2010-11-24T17:18:00.003+08:00

Snapshot of France, Lyon. (Credits to Google)

Sometimes, I wish that I could walk out of this home and be an independent girl who will decide th life she wants, path it out herself, and become stronger out of it. Indeed, I don't have th financial capacity to do so and Im probably hoping for a despodent situation for myself. But, it seems that if Im never given such a chance, I'll never truely understand what life is.

Success involves sacrifices.

Work it baby !

2010-11-23T19:37:00.003+08:00

Im behaving as though A levels are sooo over but, ohwells!
So Im gonna start with a massive burning fats plan with th help my loveeee kc. :D So yup, today I am done with 2.4k and 50 situps. Gosh, that nearly took my life but at least I feel my abs aching so all of this is worthwhile. :D Not more McValue lunch for me *RESIST* and just th everyday exercising routine to burn those fats I have accumulated over th phase of As and pre-As. :D Heeeeee!
Econs was bad. (I think I have never said any papers are good so far). I did not finish 6(b) and that is a clear 17marks goneee. Poooof! Tsk. So scary to see a U on your cert I swear but, keep your cool tv. Chill. Haissss!
One more paper to go and it is Harry Potter and th Deathly Hallows with th awesome 2T09. I sound like a happy kid now. I guess I really have a fear for Economics that I am so relieved it is over. But, there is still lit5 to goooo! OHMYTIAN!
Psst, going to the chapel with Mich really helps alot in keeping th anxiety in you outta your body. Anyone who needs a Nervous Therapy can call me to go to th chapel yeaaa!? I'd be more than willing to! <3

Wonderful dear, wonderful.

2010-11-22T16:45:00.003+08:00

And so, today was yet another happy day for me.
I dont hate school. I just need a reason for it and now, sad to say, it is officially th last week of my past 10years of 'uniform-ed' days. I'll miss th 985 trips, th rubbish and nonsensical jibberish that we can talk about th whole day, retarded things we did, th lt secret sessions and alll. Okaay I dont know why Im sinking into this sense of reminisces but, I should say this two years are two good years of radical influx of emotions and encounters that I have ever been through. There is every reason to love it and, definitely, it is still friends that motivates me to get out of bed and start out the morning. :D

Love that speaks no boundaries.

Hugs and Kisses

2010-11-21T18:30:00.004+08:00

You made today better x A TRILLION.

It is wonderful how words make one feel abjectly loved and cherished when you were thinking that you're a trash just a few minutes ago. Yess Jayne ♥ I read your bloggie and it instantaneously wiped a smile across my face (cos I had a horrible day from a bunch of inconsiderate people). :D I really cant wait for posst As then we can on those little star-like lights and talk without feeling guilty for not doing work AT ALL.

I like talking in th dark! ♥♥♥♥
And I cant wait for post As (though I believe I dont very much deserve them).
Everything will be back on track and everyone wont be in cranky mode anymore!
Happiness and freedom awaits in 5 days!

And thank you my love for making a trip down today.

Sing a lil' prayer for you.

2010-11-19T22:02:00.003+08:00

Just 6 more days to go!

Okay Im feeling super chilled after today's paper.

Ballad of a Shadow

2010-11-18T20:37:00.003+08:00

Take from me my voice and I shall voiceless go
to find you; take from my face,
I'll treck the hills invisibly,
my strength, and I shall run but keep no pace.

Even in cities. take the sense with which I reason
and I shall seek, but close it in your heart,
keep this and forget this
and this, when we're apart,

will be the shadow game of love.
And I shall love in secret
and I shall love in crowds
and love in darkness, in the quiet

outlet of shadows, and in cities
as a ghost walking unnoticed,
and love with books, using their pages like a wind,
not reading, and with people, latticed

by words but through the lattice loving.
And when at last my love is understood,
with you I shall not love but breathe
and turn by breathing into flesh and blood.

Runaway, hold my hand.

2010-11-17T09:51:00.003+08:00

I had a dream last night, a dream that I guess my heart is yearning for.

I was cuddling his jacket t sleep. His essence on th jacket made me feel his presence that I can't help but wake up and say 'Good morning baby'. It's been a long time since I talked to him in a nice, pleasant manner since the whole A levels process started. After yesterday's paper, somewhat I felt a sense of liberation, liberated from th torment of As. Ohwell, I just wanna thank God for th courage to at least sit through th A levels though Im panicking at night due to my unprepared circumstance.

Im gonna pierce my ears and I hope under Jessie's presence, I can overcome the fear and pain! WAHAHAA! Ciaoooosss!

Deceiving

2010-11-16T11:49:00.001+08:00

Just gonna walkaway.

Oh please? You're not the best.

2010-11-15T21:58:00.004+08:00

I've come to learn that you are scary.
You have hidden intents, you are not real but a fake.
God, can't believe I've been in this bewilderment for so long.

I can't believe I was being deceived for so long. Please, if you dont even consider me as your close friend, then dont act like one. You are simply lying through your teeth and y'know, I dont really give a damn about how sweet your life is if it is just a pack of lies. If you are telling me things that you did yet your actions aint congruent, then just shut your face. If you are trying to make me envy your life, I swear mine is much better that yours. I am irritated at your disgusting lies that you cant stop harping about. I dont give a damn. I dont think you wanna tell me anything genuine anyways. If you wanna be shallow and believe that your world just needs you and your sweet other, then go right ahead. I am not stopping you. You are pathetic. You cant even control your life so get off mine. Thinking you know everything when things aint the way it seems. Your gossips are crap, your judgements of people are soooo superficial. Im a fool, fool to believe that you actually treat me as someone relatively important. I think, you should mind your 'dictions', cos you are simply irking me with your nonsense.

Im pissed. Dont ask me who. Just wanna rant about this FJ.

Thorn.

2010-11-14T13:18:00.003+08:00

I know promises can be broken.
Yet, I wish that promises that come from you will always be kept.
Please?

I woke up at 12pm. Nice. My body really like to snooze and sleep ALOT.
Half th day gone, and I have not even read Pinter.
If th world is really gonna end, I dont wanna mug anymoree! :C

Love, not?

2010-11-13T23:40:00.006+08:00

Heeee. I read a really sweet blog and it sort of makes me want to blog again.

Love is really a beautiful and amazing thing. I once heard of a phrase: 'The reason why everyone wants love is because it is the closest thing to magic' - And I totally agree. It makes us forgive, forget and embrace th flaws of th other. There is accomodations, compromises, sacrifices that entails but it never let us feel th pinch at all. Love has its way to sneak into your heart and make a chemical explosion when you least expect it; a burst of abject happiness that seems to put you at peace and security. Though your space may be occupied by a thousand other strangers, your eyes could only be occupied by one.

Love is about trusting your heart, trusting what you feel and not what you see or hear.

That's how love have surprised me. Yours?

Happiness lies in the buffet.

2010-11-13T23:18:00.004+08:00

Daddy and Mummy actually brought me out to buffet today.
Dangss I think I feel more and more guilty as they treat me nicer and nicer.
:/ I should, I dont know, give my best? (:

Today, school was pretty productive (than staying at home).
I read a hundred pages of Wuthering Heights and did some analysis here and there. Not alot done for stay about twelve hours in school but it is better than just sleeping at home and getting so distracted so easily. Heh. (There's still Pinter to go).

Nerve-wrecking.

So, I was probed in the car about my after As plans and this is how my december, for now, is gonna go:
♥ Beach Volleyball with the usuals!
♥ PROM!
♥ Changi slides and Harry Potter Movie with the classs! :D:D:D:D
♥ Japan!
♥ GOING OUTTTT!
Gonna find info on learning diving (most prolly gonna be at Tioman), finish up my driving, catching up, cooooking and making up for th time I've wasted. Happeninggg yay!

Ohmygosh Im all ready for POST As. But now, I should focus on As.
Not that Math is screwed, I feel sucky enough. Damn.
Im hoping for strength to finish th last lap.
Go T. :D